Randomness....just randomness

Having been in college for as long as I have I sometimes find myself wondering if I actually know what I'm doing with my life and whether or not I actually picked something I can stand doing for an extended period of time.  It seems like the longer I do things the more I get bored with them.  I had a friend tell me the other day that when your hobby becomes your work it is no longer fun.  I'm hoping that is not going to be true.  I love Theatre and I would never give it up for anything.  But if I'm doing it all day at work, all day after school and all night will it become just too much for me?

I feel that the longer I stay in the Theatre Department at my school the less fun Theatre there becomes.  I have met some amazing people and I am so thankful that they are or were a part of my life.  Hopefully a few of them will continue to be a part of my life in the future.  But after so many years of being around it just seems like the fun of it all is beginning to get sucked out of everything I do there.  It seems like the stress and drama are beginning to get to me and I can't wait to get out and discover a new world of Theatre that I haven't been able to to be a part of.

This doesn't mean that I don't work on shows that I have an amazing time.  I loved Rent (see post) and I'm having a blast with Rumors right now.  It just seems that the drama is getting overwhelming.  Seriously people there are a few rules everyone should follow when working on any Theatre production and I feel the need to list them for your reference:

1. Be on time.  Don't get stuck in traffic because you waited until the last second to leave home.
2. DO NOT BE RUDE TO YOUR TECHIES!  THEY HAVE THE ABILITY TO MAKE YOUR LIFE HELL.
3. If you forget a line just admit it.  Don't waste everyone's time by saying something stupid and silly.
4. Meetings, meetings, meetings!
5. Diva's are not cute and they do not get their way with the people who are running the show.
6. Don't chastise people in front of everyone.  Wait to do your yelling or lecturing in private.  It only causes problems.

There's just some rules to begin with.  Later we will add to this list.  Hopefully by then I will know what I want to do with my life.

After closing Rent I never thought I would find a project that brought me that much joy.  I was then asked to work on a movie shoot doing hair, makeup and wardrobe.  This was an amazing experience and I cannot wait for the finished project to come out in September.  Although I have never worked on a movie before it was a very enlightening experience and I am glad to have had the opportunity.  It was a long 5 days of shooting but in the end the sweat and long nights were all worth it.  Thanks to a wonderful cast and crew!  I will never forget any of you and I am so glad to have made some new, very close friends.  Love you guys!

I find it hard to believe that on Wednesday I will be leaving to shoot a movie.  I have the feeling I get shortly before tech week starts for a theatre production except this time I'm not in a theatre.  I'm on a movie set.  AHHHHHHHHHHH!  I'm hoping that with the experience I've had thinking on my feet and solving problems instantly I will be okay but I'm beginning to wonder if I know enough about makeup to see this through.  My only saving grace is that he can't be expecting perfection because I am just a student.  An unpaid student at that.  Or is that what he's expecting?  Everything always seems to work out in the end in theatre, and I'm hoping that the movies are the same way.  It may not be perfect, but it'll be damned close!  I have packed and prepped everything I can possibly think of and then a few things that I doubt I will need but just in case they're gonna be there.  Stage manager preparedness coming in handy.  I suppose soon we will find out if I have what it takes to make it in film or if I should just stick to plain ol' live theatre.  Wish me luck!

So I have to admit that I'm not a huge activist type.  I do however not appreciate it when corporations walk all over people and nature with no concern for the impact that they are making.  You want to figure out if they did anything illegal?  Of course they did!  They're endangering the lives of thousands of people!  Does that not count as a crime anymore?  Oh wait, it's just not a crime when you make that much money right?  Everyone wants to boycott Bp...I say buy all the gas from them you can.  They're gonna need the money to clean all this mess up.  To make matters worse, they aren't listening to anyone's ideas like they said they would!  You call today and they'll listen to you in....how many years?  It's about time they be required to stay accountable to the public.  No more lies!  Action only!

I always tell people I never want to be married.  The conversation I had today is the only proof I need.  Never will I have to worry about how I'm going to afford to feed everyone.  Never will I have to worry about how I look in a wedding dress.  Never will I have to worry about who gets along with who and what music will make everyone happy.  Who wants salmon and who wants chicken?  What do I care!?  If the wedding is outside will I have a place to go if it rains?  Let it rain baby!  These are just a few of the things my friends have to worry about that I don't plan on having to consider.  Besides, if I do get married sometime I could really care less about feeding everyone dinner, if they eat meat or not, who they want to talk to or don't and it's my wedding so we can listen to my music!  It seems like everyone spends so much time trying to make their friends and family members happy on their wedding day instead of focusing on themselves.  In the end, no one is looking out for you but yourself.  It's your big day, one you should never forget.  Focus on you and anyone who doesn't like it, doesn't have to celebrate with you.

Summer time is among us. Most of the time for me that would mean working full-time, avoiding the humidity and trying to outrun the wasps that swarm my dad's porch every year around this time.  This year, instead of the normal summer, I have begun my summer with classes.  Okay wait.  Isn't summer supposed to be a break from school?  Last time I checked college was supposed to be different than high school.  To me that meant time to breathe, go to leisurely lunches with friends and run errands or make doctor's appointments in the middle of the afternoon.  I didn't get that.  Instead college feels like a 6 year extension to my already exhausting 4 year high school career.  To top it off, I don't even get the 3 month summer breaks now.  Instead I got a few weeks (with house guests) to try and work as much as possible so that I could prepare for these classes.  Now I've started my month of classes and once that's over will only have a month and a half to work as much as possible before I go back to school and do it all over again.  It's days like this that make me realize I cannot wait to graduate.  But then other days I realize that I have no definite plan for after graduation and at least this way people don't ask questions when I tell them I work part time.  Summer is supposed to be about less stress.  So far this one isn't cracking up to be like that.